Beautiful release
Lately I've been a bit meh - meaning I haven't really been all that motivated by much of anything. Nyla has been very ill, the issue with Jenna kind of upset me a little (because I still feel like it's my fault), and it's winter, and I always feel blah in winter.
However, my mild bout of depression - though I am loathe to call it that - has brought about a good bit of writing, which is great. Over the past year and a half, I've been a lot more prolific with my writing, and I've been very pleased with what I've produced. I think with a lot of the issues I've dealt with and the experiences I've had over that time, I have a lot to write about. I think it's good for anyone in a situation like this - anyone in general, really - to have an outlet to get those pent up emotions out. Writing, to me, allows me to say things I might not actually say to someone or write them in a way that masks to everyone else how I truly feel about something. It's cathartic - you know n. the purging of the emotions or relieving of emotional tensions, esp. through certain kinds of art, as tragedy or music.; yeah, that one - to write down all of my thoughts and see them on paper. Then I can read them and determine whether their valid or just my melodrama kicking in.
Americamas is coming up in a few days, and I've still not bought either of the girls anything. I feel like a total guy. I'll probably be going out this weekend to pick something up. I've got to ship out other packages, too. We'll probably send them out after the holiday. I've never been a bit fan of this holiday - the whole gift exchange thing seemed to be a little contradictory to the spirit of the day. Perhaps it's just me.
To everyone, though: Merry Christmas or Happy Hanukkah or Kwanza or Yule or whatever other wintery-time holiday you might celebrate. Many blessings.
