Snowed In
Days like yesterday are very good days. We got nearly 16 inches of snow where we live. Nyla's work closed shop; Elle's school closed shop; so Killian called into work (which had not closed shop). Nyla and I slept in a bit and then headed over to Elle's to spend some time there. It was a good day, despite spending nearly two hours, all total, shoveling snow off sidewalks, out from around cars, and driveways.
One of the nicest things about days like this are that Nyla and Elle get to spend time in one another's company, and things seem very natural and smooth. Nyla made a comment to me one time about not being myself when I'm with the two of them, and it didn't really occur to me what she meant until yesterday. I hadn't ever really felt comfortable being affectionate with either of them in the company of the other. It wasn't as though I was embarrassed or ashamed of it; I just didn't want to offend or upset anyone, and I thought that my little affections would. I'm not sure if it was Nyla's demeanor or my own realization that I just had to do what I felt was comfortable, but we had a nice time - the three of us - relaxing on the couch watching movies, writing, Elle knitting, Nyla pretending to get work done when really she was looking for new hair styles. It was a wonderful time, and we enjoyed hanging out with Madison and Rae, who also chose not to go anywhere.
This is how I see my future (sans a massive snow storm): the three of us (or four, I suppose, once Nyla finds someone) sitting around the house being who we are and doing what we love to do. I love my girls, and I love being able to sit with them both and relax; it makes me feel very content and satisfied. Nyla and Elle were talking about tattoos the other day, and I've always debated whether or not I would get one, and I thought of one the other day. It would be in Gaelic (because I think it's a beautiful language), and it would say "The world is my satisfaction". Kind of strange, yes, but I think that all around me I find satisfaction in many things, not the least of which is the love that I get from Nyla and Elle.
Oh, and on another note, I found a new poly-friendly friend. She's a colleague here at work, and the moment I met her, I felt that we would click. She's awesome. She's in her late 40s, lesbian, partnered for 14 years, and is "totally down with the sexually-alternative lifestyles" (her own words). We had a great time chatting at the coffee shop just up the street from me and Nyla. Plus, she loves to read, so we'll get along just fine.
All-in-all, a good couple of days. I just wish they'd learn how to deal with a snow storm in Wisconsin by actually plowing the roads, so I could get where I need to go.