Coming Out Poly

I grew up in a family where fighting, yelling, and crying were so common that I didn't know other people lived another way. My dad has a problem with being verbally abusive and my mom was either utterly disconnected from our world or throwing things. This has made me pretty terrified of confrontation - people speak to me sternly and I break down. That being said, having issues with Killian and Elle or anyone else in our relationship is the last thing I want to go through. I want us to live as a happy, emotionally healthy unit.

This weekend, Killian, Elle, and I spent a lot more time than usual together. You see, our general arrangement is both Elle and I get 2 of what we call "date days". The three of us share a calendar and we plan our date days around work, school, and other social activities. Generally we each get a night during the week and then another on the weekend.

A brief personal history: my parents have been divorced since I was two. I lived with my dad for most of my life, with frequent extended visits to my mother's place over the summer and holidays. Both of my parents remarried. My mother had two children with her second husband; my dad never had anymore kids, but he acquired a daughter - my older sister - through his marriage to my mom. So I have two younger siblings, but they've always lived too far away to really have much of a connection with them. I'm 7 years older than my brother and nearly 13 years older than my sister.